warming over old issues

At some point everybody discovers that they are becoming their parents. I think, I don’t know, maybe I’m projecting. Anyway I had a pretty disconcerting moment the other day. I heard my dad say something I say all the time, not just a phrase, more of mannerism contained in a phrase. He asked my to wash the dishes and I hesitated before answering because, and this is absolutely accurate and not in any way an exaggeration, my mouth was full at the time and he said “you know what, forget it”. He said it with exasperation a derision and a subtext of “fuck it, you’re obviously not capable of fulfilling this simple request, I'll just do it myself”. That’s mine, I do that. I do it with more superiority, and less anger, but I do that all the time. It turns out I learned it from him, he must have used it on me a thousand times since before I could talk, and I bet I've used it on him. I wonder if he found it disturbing or disorienting. I wonder if he even noticed.
Considering how much this whole thing weirded me out you’d think that I would rebel, or reassess, or try to fight this, maybe become an independent human being. you’d think it would make me want to be less condescending, or negative, or manipulative, or depressed, or mean, or disdainful, or less like all the things I hate about him. You’d think that, wouldn’t you? You’d think but you’d be wrong. I just feel resigned.